If you've ever read my blog before, you may know I have a huge fear. Anyone know what it is?!
Flying!
Saying that word out loud gives me the biggest anxiety. And since I'm currently watching Discovery Channel's 2 hour special on how a group of scientists purposely crashed a plane to study its outcome, I thought I'd fill you guys in a little on my fear. It may also help me! But probably not...because I'm a lost cause when it comes to flying!
I've probably flown just over 25 times in my life, and I've always been scared. But the past 10 years or so its been about crashing, terrorism, and things going wrong mid-flight.
Let me give you a little look into my brain when I'm about to fly:
Book a trip 8 months in advance
Pray every night until we leave that we have a safe flight to and from our destination
2 weeks prior, start to seriously consider backing out of the trip
1 week prior start worrying/getting anxious hardcore about the flight
Night before, don't sleep a wink
Morning of, lay on cold bathroom floor feeling nauseas trying to calm down
In the airport terminal, look at everyone about to be on our flight
Question why a man has no carry-on
Question why a man is fidgety
Pray during take off
Pray during flight
Dig fingernails into Kurt's arms when I hear a noise
Notice if someone is in bathroom for too long
Make sure flight attendants never look nervous
Pray during landing
PRAIS JESUS when I step foot out of plane!!
Phew
That was exhausting just typing all of that out
Honestly though, I think it's an awful disease/fear. Not only does it make the entire flight unenjoyable, but it hinders me from ever wanting to fly anywhere!
I try my best to keep busy. Sleeping is out of the question. I won't allow myself to sleep because I have to constantly be aware of my surroundings. I watch TV, listen to music, read, and....DRINK.
From our trip to Disney
Vodka Cran at 630am
And Hanna from Pretty Lil Liars
Classy
I've thought about taking a drug, talking to someone about it, or even taking a sleeping pill for goodness sake! However, I'm not quite sure it would help. Talking about it does make me feel a little better though. My dad, who has his pilots license, always tries calming me down by explaining the chances of a crash are slim. And if I can handle it, I'll google "how planes fly" a few weeks before a flight. I literally just laughed out loud thinking of myself googling that.
Anyone else scared to fly? Any tips for a scardey cat flyer like myself?!